The other night the kids asked me to read from their journal that I keep for them instead of a regular bedtime book. We do this every once in a while, they would love to do it every night if I would let them. One of their favorite entries is this one, July 27, 2010 "today Ethan farted on his hand and said to me, "hey mom, I farted on my hand want to smell it?" I declined and then he said "wanna smell it now?" It was hilarious! That kid really is a character."
As you can see the kids have their mothers sense of humor.... Well I just turn the pages and read from them and I read this one to them...
April 2, 2011
Just a quick note to you kids! On Monday (1day away) I have to return to work. My maternity leave is over (6 weeks) and so I must go back to work. I want you kids to know that I want nothing more than to stay at home with you each and every day. I want nothing more than to be a stay at home mom. I cherish every crazy minute with you guys. The last six weeks have flown by. It has been great to grow closer to each of you - I know my divine role is to be a mother to you kids and I do feel like me going to work is not fulfilling that role - but know this my children I love each of you beyond belief and one day when I'm able I will be a stay at home mom and spend every day, every minute with you! I work to support this family while daddy is in school.... When he is done with school I will be done with work and ALL yours! Please know my desire for being a good mother and to stay home with you. And please know of my love for each of you. Good night my loves, I love you to pieces. Mommy!
As I read this entry to them I couldn't help but get chocked up. After I finished I asked the kids if they knew how much they meant to me. Ethan said yes and then I looked at Katelee and she had this perplexed look on her face. I asked if she was ok and she said, "that almost made me cry!" I was slightly stunned, I knew I had felt the spirit as I read to then kids but I didn't realize that I wasn't the only one. I asked her how it made her feel and she said happy and then I talked with the kids about feeling the spirit and how it makes us feel. As I reflected on this exchange later that night I couldn't help but smile and feel good about our journal reading that night.
I look forward to staying at home with my kids and being able to provide them with all my time and attention. So many nights I come home stressed from work or preoccupied by things going on at work or just plain tired and I don't feel like I give enough to my kids. I know staying at home will be tough and I will struggle at times but I look forward to it so much! I hope when I am having a rough day I will be able to read this post and remember those feelings that I have felt so strongly for a while now and be grateful for the opportunity of being at home.
Moses: 11 Months Old
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